| Hello, here I
am. It is 2006 and it is A.me’s babble space. Bla bla bla, very
exciting. I am finally writing something. If you have found this spot
in our web site, let me just say Hi. I am so grateful, that people are
out there. Being an artist, I sometimes feel alone. Creation to me is
complete with you. You are the one I work for. It’s true, I am a
people lover. I am fascinated by why we are who we are. Our stories, our
quirks, our needs. As an artist I try to open myself to a source, a spirit,
larger than I and you. I come in contact with a teacher (or muse), whoever
that is. This teacher guides my words, my creations, my insights. Hopefully
we both get some answers we are looking for, what ever they are. So to
me the viewer and I are on the same journey. I just open my mind to receive
what to create. The viewer opens their mind to see. We each receive our
own answers or conclusions. Sometimes people think that I am confused,
crazy or taking lots of drugs. These are all their judgments about me.
Often it is easier to judge the creator, than to actually look at creation.
For the record, I have never taken acid, nor can I drink or take drugs.
I naturally am pretty spacey. Unfortunately, for me, living on planet
earth has required more than my natural attention span. Perhaps I am an
alien life. My parents used to say I lived in a milk bottle and only came
out when I wanted. Yes it is true. I am basically like that. The world
and all its problems and wars really baffle me. Same with our value systems,
and needs for knowing it all. When I create I guess I immerse myself in
my imagination and create a different space to exist in. The rules are
different, there really aren’t any. And nothing is wrong if I express
it. I like creating from this uncensored space. Yikes, this all sounds,
a bit wordy, but I am trying to type uncensored. My process is about rhythm
and journey and release of censorship. I trust that. I trust we are all
channels. And we all express our unique interpretations of the information
we come across. In defining my work, or god, or anything, I choose to
focus on the question. Why do we all feel the need for a right final answer?
If I follow the yearning and the questions, I remain humble. The humility
of not understanding and not knowing is my source. My food. I really enjoy
the unknown, and the puzzle. My work amazes me. And I relish its surprise.
As others see into the puzzle I learn more about my search. As I compromise
to work with Mitch and Rokoko, and get closer to a knowing, I am always
amazed how things become clear and then unclear. Attachment to definition,
then detachment. Only time seems to create a pattern I really can identify
with. Does that make sense? There is a sense, or knowing, about the unknown.
It is a trust and faith built on trial and error and surrender. I like
this babble page. This is my space to be incoherent, just like when I
paint. Why be coherent any how. Aren’t we all just a jumble of conflicting
hypocrisies, judgments and thoughts? Why is it human to think we know,
the way. My way, is my way this moment. Not yours, not theirs. It just
is. And it is through my executions of this or that, that I decide. And
follow the decisions by my heart or my gut. I believe my heart is full
of love and a need to touch others with this love. I feel I often fear
love. And the more I believe that I can live in this space of unconditional
acceptance, the greater life is. And as I know this gift for me, I want
it for you too. Ultimately life is like fire. Once my fire is going I
can help you start yours, and when I am just a bunch of smoke, I get restarted
by someone else’s fire. Passion like fire spreads. So let’s
live our passion and burn holes in our fears. We can live alive, igniting
our cosmic soul. |
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